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filtered water and pictures of you

Posted on 2006.09.16 at 23:14
and i'm not coming out until this is all over.

I've been all over the place in the past two months and everything is a blur. I have more memories from these weeks than from any other time in my life. I'm living for the first time and it's alright.

But every morning I wake up from a horrible dream. I can't avoid it; every night for the past long time it's been something bad, painful, bitter and dispapointing. Usually involving random girls.

Ignoring that...

For the longest time I've denied myself the right of being a blissfully ignorant, fucked up teenager. I never had that in my life until now, and although it comes with more drama than an hour on TNT, I think it's worth it. Some moments are just so... right.

Like every night, past midnight, when I've got school in six hours, and I'm out in the rain without a care in the fucking world.

Yet I still think about the things that have hurt me for as long as I can remember.

What a fucking buzzkill.

I haven't written in a while, and the people that may bother to read this I barely even talk to any more. I miss you all and I'm sorry.

I'm so, so sorry.


eyesofrage at 2006-09-17 14:51 (UTC) (Link)
Hi Danny :)
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